I have never professed to be a guru of anything except my own life experiences. That is ultimately all you can be a guru about when you take the time to try and understand your life journey. Sure, when you work with people, you get an understanding and your reference expand but I cannot profess to be a GURU on the basis of someone else's experiences.
There are systems, structures through collective and individual conscious and subconscious, religions, belief systems, philosophies, psychologies our personal experiences and the list goes on and on and these all influence us in some way or the other. All of the above is so much a part of our conditioning, how on earth are we supposed to make sense of what goes on? How are we supposed to navigate our way through life and understand our purpose and the sense of it all?
How are we supposed so suffer blows with grace and poise and how the hell are we at times supposed to carry on normally? Lock yourself in a cage and hide, lash out at the world, self sabotage?
In many ways I have developed an understanding for why certain people live existential lifes, ignorance is perhaps bliss....... BUT no it is not, I have tried that and felt desperately empty.
That used to be my question for a long, long time and i realised with a bang that yes, the journey is painful at times because it is so contradictory to what all the systems, structures conscious and sub-conscious, bellief systems, philosophies, psychologies profess it would be and i think that is why there is such deep pain in our experiences and a deep rebellion.
A personal share here is that the moment I started using my core values as the guiding principles for my journey, listened to my heart, mind and soul in an integrated way, the pain lessened and I am able to navigate my journey with grace and poise and a deeper understanding. Ultimately we KNOW at a soul level what is right and wrong and what we need and dont need, if we care to look and not be reliant on the external world for answers.
Dont get me wrong, i still get angry, when I am desperatly ill from chemo but by and large there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I rely on myself because I am made in the source image with the right resources to live my life fully and completely.
I am not claiming or professing to having a perfect life, not in the least, I am human. What i can tell you is that when it all gets too much, I remind myself to break free from all the conditioning I have been exposed to and to rely on my inner core to navigate my journey through life......
As for my heart, i have locked that in a castle with a draw bridge and dragons that guard it because at a deep inner level, my core is telling me that is what i need to heal my cancer and I will review this position as i get better. I have made other quite "perceived bad " choices that is raising eye brows of people who have NO understanding of where I am in my life and why I am doing what I am doing, but I am not heeding their judgements, not because I am stubborn but because I have worked through it from all angles and I am happy that I am on the right course.
Ultimately, do as you will and harm none. This was the intention, to share a way that helps navigate my journey through life.
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Sophia
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